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Lyndis Nivali ([personal profile] artful_transgressor) wrote in [community profile] scrib 2013-05-31 06:52 am (UTC)

ria and ira?
iVe been talking to ria a lot
probably more than any of the other humans
which makes sense since she and i literally haVe the same title
helps us work our shit out a little faster

i dont think we can afford ANYONE dying
all our sessions seem connected in weird ways
which is why i think were able to communicate with each other at all
i dunno if we can actually affect each others sessions in any concrete way but info is pretty important all by itself
so us being able to talk is probably significant
plus since beta flat out hitched a ride on alpha in some obscure way
that suggests it eVen more
so no i dont think anyone dying in other sessions would help ours any
i wouldnt eVen lay caegars on it not actiVely HURTING our session
frankly if i thought beta or the humans dying was gonna help us in alpha any i wouldnt be all up in your grill trying to push the whole teamwork message down your protein chute
or at least not as much
cause what you do and what happens to your session wouldnt matter to me as much

hey if the branch is hugely significant fine
i could eVen see him going 'whoa hey dont bash the branch its important'
and then id have gone 'hey whateVer'
and that couldVe been that
instead he mentions it has some kinda significance to him WAY after the fact
and nurses this massiVe inexplicable grudge oVer me not knowing the branch was that important to him DESPITE HIM TAKING FOREVER TO TELL ME SO
and acts like i pissed in the eye of his lusus for giVing him what seemed like perfectly sound surViVal adVice at the time
literally the only thing wrong with it was not taking whateVer emotional significance the branch has into account
which is not something i could possibly haVe known without being psychic
and frankly that isnt how my psionics function
so you tell me how it makes sense for him to be pissed at me for accidentally insulting something i couldnt haVe possibly known was important while trying to help him
especially to the EXTENT hes pissed
itd be one thing if he was momentarily pissed and then chilled once id backed off the branch
but were talking a lasting grudge he brings up eVery time he says two words to me
where he acts like i was intentionally being an asshole to him
if you know the guy talk sense into him

sorry
didnt mean to bring up the whole subject of
yknow
whoeVer youVe already lost
i just meant theres gotta be people in the sessions you like
you get along with aVispa dont you
and apparently you know that phylus guy decently
and you liked bharal enough to do that weird defensive thing when kappy tried talking to him
so thats at least three people you might not want dead
or upset oVer people THEY like dying
do you see where im going with this

iVe tried
half the time i try to make her think about anything though
she just goes 'this is too hard and complicated'
and she kinda waVes off whateVer iVe been saying
although in my last memo she was better about it than she has been
but fuck some of the things iVe had to explain to her
i had to explain METAPHORS to her

yeah
odds are im gonna need it
but i cant just stay on this planet foreVer
eVen if itd probably be safer
its not gonna get us anywhere

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