artful_transgressor: (THE TOP SHELF WAS MADE TO TAUNT YOU LYN)
Lyndis Nivali ([personal profile] artful_transgressor) wrote in [community profile] scrib 2013-05-09 02:59 am (UTC)

hey dont make this my fault
i was talking about the Very thing this whole memo was about in the first place
and the contextual clues were pretty fucking heaVy
so if you managed to not get it despite all that
it sure as fuck wasnt me not communicating clearly enough
it was you not goddamn listening
i eVen fucking SPECIFIED that the only thing i was taking credit for was being the first to try and get the sessions and entry orders worked out in public
not for being the only one helping anyone at all
which you also eVidently missed
plus theres the fact that i neVer fucking actually claimed to be the only person helping people PERIOD
thats totally something you read in between the lines so that is ENTIRELY on you and cannot in any way be chalked up to some communication fail on my part

this is why you fucking think all i do is try to proVe im not wrong
its cause literally eVerything you say is trying to make shit eVeryone elses fault but yours
so yeah
basically any discussion with you turns into you telling people theyre wrong
whether or not they actually are
and when people point out that they arent you slam them for being defensiVe
im detecting a Vicious cycle here

seriously
i dunno for some reason i thought id talked to you before
but shit things haVe been a fucking mess and iVe lurked in a lot of memos
okay so in the interest of fairness
ill grant you that if that was literally the first time we eVer talked then i didnt exactly make the greatest first impression
regardless of my objections being justified
so while im not gonna apologize for calling you on that shit
ill apologize for not introducing myself before i went off on you

also he didnt ask me to stay out until i was already in
and as i pointed out
i dont back down from shit i start
eVen when asked
and since you dont belieVe in that shit you wouldnt exactly think better of me if i had

look do you eVen really care about my reasons for getting inVolVed
cause i dont actually think you do
so whats the point in you asking about them

im no bitchier with you than i am with anybody else
which is pretty fucking obVious if youVe literally eVer seen me talk to anyone
eVen kappy doesnt get me any less abrasiVe than i start out with you
especially if hes saying something dumb or nonsensical
so yeah when you get all pissy about me treating you the same way i treat eVerybody
i consider that 'without proVocation'
are you gonna claim youre so thin-skinned you cant handle my oVerall sarcasm leVels
which eVen kappy can stomach?
cause i dont see that being a thing you wanna say

and my problem with you is pretty much what iVe already boiled down
you take offense at the dumbest little things
things that arent and were neVer meant to be offensiVe
you dont appreciate a single goddamn effort i make
fuck you usually throw them back in my face
like you remember that shit with aVispa trying to get people to feel sorry for you
where i was trying to get her to comprehend how not cool that was for her to do to you
yknow
actually trying to help you and getting aVispa to recognize the concept of you haVing personal priVacy and her haVing Violated it
despite the fact that wed literally been at each others protein chutes only a handful of hours before?
did you just fucking forget that was a thing i did

or how about when you declared you were fucking done with the session
eVen MORE immediately after that argument
and i actiVely tried to patch shit up with you
like i explained what youd done that id objected to
and why it was detrimental to the session hence my objections
and then i apologized for going too far with said objections
and you responded with how you were going to kill me?
there was that thing

the point is iVe made way too many obVious efforts to get along with you for you to be constantly taking offense at the fairly innocuous shit i say like im actiVely trying to piss you off
it should be pretty goddamn obVious when im actually going off on you
cause yknow
youVe SEEN me flip the fuck off the handle
when i go off i seriously go off
there shouldnt eVen be a passing resemblance between when my normal behaVior and im genuinely pissed
and i think youre perfectly capable of telling the difference
so why do you keep getting pissed at me and getting on my case oVer nothing unless youre just looking to fucking pick fights with me
it feels a lot more like youVe got a problem with me than the reVerse
all the more so cause iVe neVer seen you actually try to help me for no reason
or eVen acknowledge i possess positiVe qualities
and you sure as fuck haVe neVer apologized to me for ANYTHING
so if anyones got a grudge here its not me

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