[OPEN] ===> Kalfour: Return

[bizango]

Return from where? Well you have been watching the sky for some time now, though why you would do such a thing for so long has somehow managed to slip your mind. That’s alright though. You have been enjoying yourself at least! The fires starting up at the very edge of the horizon are quite pretty against the evening sky.

However, they’ve started creeping closer now, as have the meteors and it’s finally starting to make you nervous. You have to make sure your moirail survives, and from what everyone’s been saying, that won’t happen until she’s playing the game. Which means you have to start soon too. You take another long look at the sky, and then slip down from the roof and in through your respiteblock window. It takes you a minute to find your husktop in the dark and as it turns on, you descend the stairs and settle on the step just outside your door. Hopefully everyone has started the game alright so far! You haven't been doing a very good job keeping track. Whoops!

restlessMediumhas signed on.

restlessMedium [RM] has started pestering meticulousPedicure [MP].

mp~
are yOu ready tO play the game yet~~

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[bizango]

Okay~
as lOng as yOu're Okay mOst Of the time~~
i'm sOrry if i Caught yOu On a bad day~
if that's what it was~

[deadpanlife]

urm
that wasn't a bad day
but
thank you anyway
and i'm sti|| sorry

Your bad days tend to be a lot worse than that.

html is hard!!!

[bizango]

nO~it's Okay~
it was my fault~i think~
sOrry~

...although the news that that... whole... thing was not a Bad Day for Kaprao sort of makes you wonder. And worry. There's definitely some worry there. You wonder how much you can ask about this. Hm...

what are yOur bad days like~
if that's~
sOmething yOu want tO talk abOut~maybe~~

typos are hard!!!

[deadpanlife]

uh
we||
a |ot more
bad fee|ings
kind of |ike you're stuck in a pit and the on|y way to go is down
because you're so deep in that going up |ooks impossib|e
maybe it is
and you don't rea||y want to try going up even if that's where the |ight is
because you know there are far more awfu| things out there than there are in the pit
and it's okay as |ong as you can sti|| see the |ight even if you're never going to actua||y be in it
that kind of fee|ing i guess
i'm sorry it's kind of hard to describe

life is hard!!!!!!!!!

[bizango]

it's alright ps~
ahaha~
have yOu maybe talked tO yOur mOirail abOut this~at all~~
beCause it sOunds like sOmething they might be able tO help with~perhaps~

[deadpanlife]

i
sorta
did?
but he has so many prob|ems right now himse|f
i don't think its fair for me to add onto them
at |east right now

[bizango]

UH... KAPRAO...

ps~
ahaha~
i think maybe~if yOu dOn't mind me saying~
that it might be a gOOd thing to bring up~~
with sOmeOne yOu trust~at least~~
and maybe talk abOut it a little with them~

[deadpanlife]

i
think i'|| be fine
i just need to get used to ta|king to peop|e
i guess

No, you are not ignoring the fact that your anxiety is just a symptom of bigger problems. You don't have bigger problems, or at least ones you can't handle.

Since, well, you're still here, even if you are a mess.

[bizango]

You... have a bad feeling about this. One of Those Feelings that ends up being right a worrying amount of the time. But you aren't his moirail, and you certainly don't want to give him the impression that you want to take him away from his, so you don't know how to just tell him that this is probably a bad decision on his part.

You are quiet for a bit again, wrestling with yourself...

yOu Only think?

[deadpanlife]

we||
as fine as i can get
maybe i'|| te|| Samsra once we're a|| in
and he can fina||y stop worrying about it being bad news

[bizango]

Okay~
that sOunds like a gOOd plan tO me~~
i'm sure he'll be able tO help~

...no you don't. Samsra scares the shit out of you. But you're trying to be encouraging, so!

[deadpanlife]

urm
you wou|dn't happen to be scared of him
wou|d you?
i'm not going to be offended, don't worry
since
that's a pretty reasonable impression to get from him

[bizango]

Oh nO~
he seems really niCe~~
maybe a little high strung but~
that's an Okay thing tO be when yOu're saving the wOrld~i think~

[deadpanlife]

oh
that's good, then
he's
kind of rea||y bad a ta|king to peop|e, i think

[bizango]

Oh good, Kaprao and his moirail both have the same problem. You have high hopes already...

i never wOuld've guessed~

HTML IS HARD!!

[deadpanlife]

The terrible part is that Kaprao is still the one better at the whole talking to people thing.

urm
you don't
have to be that po|ite, you know

YES IT IS

[bizango]

...wait what.

Oh~
ahaha~
sOrry~am i being tOO pOlite~

[deadpanlife]

urm
actua||y that probab|y isn't the right word for it
nevermind

Talking to people is hard. Articulating yourself is also very hard, apparently.

urm
sorry for un|oading a|| of that on you
but i guess if you wou|dn't mind
maybe you cou|d ta|k to Samsra sometimes?
he's
kind of |one|y

[bizango]

...

FUCK.

Okay~
i think i Can prObably dO that~~
ahaha~
and it's alright ps~
i'll always listen if yOu want sOmeOne tO talk tO~

[deadpanlife]

thank you
though if he says anything creepy p|ease te|| me


oh and
urm
that thing ear|ier was not mean to sound |ike a pa|e overture
sorry

[bizango]

Oh~
yes I knOw~
thank yOu fOr saying sO thOugh~
ahaha~

[deadpanlife]

urm
is it your turn to get into the game yet?

[bizango]

pretty sOOn~prObably~
i have tO talk tO mp~
and see whether he's in yet~~

[deadpanlife]

oh
that's good
i guess i might see everyone e|se in the game eventua||y?

Now that you think about it, you probably will.

Fuck.

Okay no don't panic that won't be for a while yet --

[bizango]

prObably~~
i'm nOt sure hOw it wOrks really~
but i'm sure we'll meet up all tOgether eventually~~