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scrib2013-04-29 06:39 pm
artful_transgressor) wrote in scrib2013-04-29 06:39 pm
Entry tags:
- character: avispa kusbir,
- character: durian agripa,
- character: eric langton,
- character: kaprao ocimum,
- character: lyndis nivali,
- character: mandya yamini,
- character: perrix seiyos,
- character: phylus inatta,
- character: ria pololanik,
- character: shea lister,
- character: wess cannon,
- character: zurahe cadens
==> Lyndis: Be productive.
Well, it took awhile, but once you stopped FLIPPING BULGES and distracting yourself from your WEIRD TIME SHIT with a lot of GRIST GRINDING and ALCHEMIZING WAY TOO MUCH STUFF, you finally started actually BEING PRODUCTIVE. The grinding allowed you to GAIN SOME LEVELS, which as far as you can tell is just a DUMB NICKNAME SYSTEM that gives you periodic infusions of BOONDOLLARS, but you assume it will be useful at some point. (What kind of game doesn't require you to get ALL THE LEVELS? But REAL LIFE doesn't have ABILITIES measured in NUMERIC STATISTICS that are increased upon LEVEL UP, so you're not actually sure how this is helping you.) More to the point, YOUR SERVER PLAYER has had enough grist to build up your CLIFF to the FIRST GATE - which was EASIER THAN IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN, since, you know, cliffs tend to be NATURALLY HIGH TO START WITH.
You went through it A LITTLE WHILE AGO, which accomplished NOTHING OF PARTICULAR IMPORTANCE except getting you kind of LOST. It's just as well there are plenty of CAVES on your planet, and also that you ALWAYS CAPTCHALOGUE YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS before you go anywhere; you haven't left ANYTHING back at your CAVE except, well, MEMORIES OF A SENTIMENTAL NATURE you would NEVER ADMIT to having. You're pretty sure you can ACTUALLY SEE THE FIRST GATE way off in the distance whenever you are AT THE TOP OF ANOTHER CLIFF, since there is A HUGE AND EASILY VISIBLE STRUCTURE leading up to it; part of you wants to head RIGHT BACK THERE, but as of yet you HAVEN'T GIVEN INTO THE TEMPTATION. You swore you were going to PROGRESS in this game, dammit, you can't just go RUNNING HOME LIKE A HIVESICK WIGGLER.
That, and you CAN'T ACTUALLY SEE IT ANYMORE, thanks to a bunch of FUCKING INEXPLICABLE STATIC that seems to be LOCALIZED TO YOU; no matter where you go, your FIELD OF VISION seems to cut off into A BUNCH OF SHITTY STATIC WHITE NOISE about THIRTY FEET AWAY in every direction. It is SO FUCKING ANNOYING and it honestly makes wandering around KIND OF IMPOSSIBLE AND DANGEROUS.
You are currently holed up in ANOTHER CAVE; it beats FRYING under your planet's godforsaken SUN(the light of which is COMPLETELY UNAFFECTED BY THE STATIC, dammit). It isn't as fierce as the sun on ALTERNIA, at least in that it doesn't CAUSE YOU ACTUAL BODILY HARM to be out in it, but it's still FUCKING UNPLEASANT. No wonder your quest involves BRINGING SOME GODDAMN SHADE in ways you are still COMPLETELY UNCLEAR ON. From what you've gathered, you're supposed to DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE SUN ITSELF - but that's COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS. How the fuck could you do something like that?
But you're getting DISTRACTED. You've got a PURPOSE right now, as much because you're not sure HOW TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR PLANET QUEST and whether or not you should be working toward your SECOND GATE or STAYING PUT to meet up with other players as because THIS IS IMPORTANT SHIT THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN NAILED DOWN A LONG TIME AGO.
To that end, you OPEN A MEMO.
-- artfulTransgressor [AT] RIGHT NOW opened memo on board so done with playing blind. --
AT: alright so
AT: dunno how many of you actually open your sponge clots when cs is talking
AT: i wouldnt really blame you if you just sort of let that shit wash oVer you without bothering to process any of it
AT: but belieVe it or not he actually had something important to say about sequences a memo or two back
AT: specifically that all our planets may be connected through our gates
AT: probably just through our own indiVidual sessions but honestly who the fuck knows at this point
AT: but he also said that despite working out there is a sequence
AT: he has no fucking idea what the sequence is
AT: or eVen who is in what session
AT: and you know who else doesnt know
AT: me
AT: i kinda wonder if ANYBODY fucking knows
AT: this memo is to remedy that shit right now
AT: so
AT: lets get this shit sorted out
AT: i want you
AT: no matter who the fuck you are eVen if weVe neVer talked
AT: or eVen if you cannot fucking stand me
AT: put your hands down kids
AT: to sound off here
AT: i want you to giVe your name
AT: along with who your serVer and client players are
AT: i dont care if your serVer and client haVe already spoken up by the way
AT: you damn well sound off anyway
AT: this is as much to get people straight as sequences
AT: and it gets eVeryone checking in
AT: if we get eVeryone to do this then we should be able to figure out the sequences
AT: along with how many sessions weVe got here
AT: and once weVe got the sequences and sessions straight maybe we can come up with some kinda plan
AT: ill eVen set up a format
AT: its gonna be serVer - you - client
AT: so in my case kaprao - lyn - zirreh
AT: as far as i know the three of us are all part of the original session phaest started
AT: were gonna call that the alpha session for claritys sake
AT: i know theres another troll session that sorta squeezed in
AT: well call that beta
AT: and so on down the line if theres more i honestly dont know at this point
AT: theres a human session as well i know that much
AT: theyre just gonna be the human session
AT: if theres more than one of their sessions too i guess well figure out names
AT: but does eVeryone get the idea of what were trying to figure out here
AT: good
AT: now sound off
You went through it A LITTLE WHILE AGO, which accomplished NOTHING OF PARTICULAR IMPORTANCE except getting you kind of LOST. It's just as well there are plenty of CAVES on your planet, and also that you ALWAYS CAPTCHALOGUE YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS before you go anywhere; you haven't left ANYTHING back at your CAVE except, well, MEMORIES OF A SENTIMENTAL NATURE you would NEVER ADMIT to having. You're pretty sure you can ACTUALLY SEE THE FIRST GATE way off in the distance whenever you are AT THE TOP OF ANOTHER CLIFF, since there is A HUGE AND EASILY VISIBLE STRUCTURE leading up to it; part of you wants to head RIGHT BACK THERE, but as of yet you HAVEN'T GIVEN INTO THE TEMPTATION. You swore you were going to PROGRESS in this game, dammit, you can't just go RUNNING HOME LIKE A HIVESICK WIGGLER.
That, and you CAN'T ACTUALLY SEE IT ANYMORE, thanks to a bunch of FUCKING INEXPLICABLE STATIC that seems to be LOCALIZED TO YOU; no matter where you go, your FIELD OF VISION seems to cut off into A BUNCH OF SHITTY STATIC WHITE NOISE about THIRTY FEET AWAY in every direction. It is SO FUCKING ANNOYING and it honestly makes wandering around KIND OF IMPOSSIBLE AND DANGEROUS.
You are currently holed up in ANOTHER CAVE; it beats FRYING under your planet's godforsaken SUN(the light of which is COMPLETELY UNAFFECTED BY THE STATIC, dammit). It isn't as fierce as the sun on ALTERNIA, at least in that it doesn't CAUSE YOU ACTUAL BODILY HARM to be out in it, but it's still FUCKING UNPLEASANT. No wonder your quest involves BRINGING SOME GODDAMN SHADE in ways you are still COMPLETELY UNCLEAR ON. From what you've gathered, you're supposed to DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE SUN ITSELF - but that's COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS. How the fuck could you do something like that?
But you're getting DISTRACTED. You've got a PURPOSE right now, as much because you're not sure HOW TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR PLANET QUEST and whether or not you should be working toward your SECOND GATE or STAYING PUT to meet up with other players as because THIS IS IMPORTANT SHIT THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN NAILED DOWN A LONG TIME AGO.
To that end, you OPEN A MEMO.
-- artfulTransgressor [AT] RIGHT NOW opened memo on board so done with playing blind. --
AT: alright so
AT: dunno how many of you actually open your sponge clots when cs is talking
AT: i wouldnt really blame you if you just sort of let that shit wash oVer you without bothering to process any of it
AT: but belieVe it or not he actually had something important to say about sequences a memo or two back
AT: specifically that all our planets may be connected through our gates
AT: probably just through our own indiVidual sessions but honestly who the fuck knows at this point
AT: but he also said that despite working out there is a sequence
AT: he has no fucking idea what the sequence is
AT: or eVen who is in what session
AT: and you know who else doesnt know
AT: me
AT: i kinda wonder if ANYBODY fucking knows
AT: this memo is to remedy that shit right now
AT: so
AT: lets get this shit sorted out
AT: i want you
AT: no matter who the fuck you are eVen if weVe neVer talked
AT: or eVen if you cannot fucking stand me
AT: put your hands down kids
AT: to sound off here
AT: i want you to giVe your name
AT: along with who your serVer and client players are
AT: i dont care if your serVer and client haVe already spoken up by the way
AT: you damn well sound off anyway
AT: this is as much to get people straight as sequences
AT: and it gets eVeryone checking in
AT: if we get eVeryone to do this then we should be able to figure out the sequences
AT: along with how many sessions weVe got here
AT: and once weVe got the sequences and sessions straight maybe we can come up with some kinda plan
AT: ill eVen set up a format
AT: its gonna be serVer - you - client
AT: so in my case kaprao - lyn - zirreh
AT: as far as i know the three of us are all part of the original session phaest started
AT: were gonna call that the alpha session for claritys sake
AT: i know theres another troll session that sorta squeezed in
AT: well call that beta
AT: and so on down the line if theres more i honestly dont know at this point
AT: theres a human session as well i know that much
AT: theyre just gonna be the human session
AT: if theres more than one of their sessions too i guess well figure out names
AT: but does eVeryone get the idea of what were trying to figure out here
AT: good
AT: now sound off
no subject
first of all
this is Very blatantly me asking
which i assume eVen you recognize since you answered
although despite the fact that youre claiming you know you haVent actually told me eVeryone whos on which team so maybe its not that obVious after all
second of all
maybe you know eVeryone in YOUR session
but i wanna find out exactly whos in each session not just yours
so unless you literally know eVeryone and which session theyre in you couldnt tell me by yourself eVerything i wanna know
plus this is as much about the sequences as the actual players which i dont see you claiming to know at all
so this memo would still be necessary regardless
third
i wouldnt actually be expecting people to keep important information to themselVes rather than spreading it around
so it made more sense for me to assume nobody knew than to think that maybe one or two people know and just arent sharing with the class
anyway
conciseness is oVerrated
whereas clarity is underValued
i wanna make sure eVeryone knows what im asking for and why its fucking important we know
doesnt hurt that theres also way too much text for them not to see it
of course with all that STILL hardly anyones chiming in
no subject
she's probably figured it all out weeks ago
puzzles and all that
and I never said I didn't know all that
you just didn't ask
and you're still not asking
so I'm not going to tell you
and Kusbir, if you see this, don't you tell him either
if he wants to be a prissy little bint about it and act like he's the only one who's ever tried to get information
or help anyone out
then he can figure it out himself
and if you're expecting a bunch of trolls to be straightforward about what they know even now
you're really forgetting what your species is like kid
they might be 'cooperating'
but that don't mean they're telling you everything
gotta keep a leg up on everyone else somehow, right♫
no subject
she sure as fuck didnt mention if shes worked out the whole damn sequence already
although honestly with her she could just be not telling me so i can haVe the unbridled joy of trying to get blood from this stone myself
i do not eVen begin to get her
oh my god
first of all where the fuck did i act like im the only one trying to help people
frankly if i was wed all be doomed
but yeah im damn well gonna take credit for trying to get this all sorted out in fucking public where eVeryone can see
cause you just point me to where you made whateVer info youVe got public goddamn knowledge
especially if its current with all the deaths thereVe been recently
cause i sure as fuck haVent seen anything like that
second of all
are you
fucking seriously
going to hide shit from me purely out of spite
cause thats basically the opposite of a person trying to help other players
whateVer fucking help you giVe is totally arbitrary and conditional
assuming you giVe any at all
and it still apparently hasnt sunk into your pan that this is a fucking TEAM game
which means fucking me oVer is the same as fucking yourself oVer
say what you want about me and my methods but im actually trying to help people i dont eVen LIKE here
trying to get eVeryone on the same page
whereas the second YOU think someones not striking a humble or gracious enough fucking tone you slam shut faster than an uptight highbloods legs
i mean if you wanna talk about unreasonable species expectations just look in the fucking mirror
if you seriously expect trolls to not be assholes and are gonna hold off on helping anyone until then youre not eVer actually gonna be helpful
seriously
im just sitting here
reading this
and im wondering why the fuck you eVen complained about me not asking you
since you seem to be compiling a list of the reasons why youd be the last person id expect to help me
you already know why i wouldnt bother asking you so why eVen ask me the fucking question
i could pretty much copy this text and paste it into a new memo called 'reasons why zurahe should be your last choice as a source of information'
no subject
after you admitted that you didn't ask me because you ASSUMED I wouldn't
or would put all sorts of terms and conditions on my help
congratulations
you've outdone yourself in the hypocrisy department
take a goddamn bow
that said
wouldja just look at all this not helping I've been doing♫
it's downright unsportsmanlike
now
what was it you said you'd been doing while everyone else was out trying to play this game♫
oh, that's right
not paying any goddamn attention, right♫
or at least, not to anyone who didn't come whining to you personally
no subject
as weVe both stated that was always kinda a giVen
im pissed that youre jerking me around
and acting high and goddamn mighty cause of all this information you CLAIM to haVe but arent actually gonna share with anyone
while bitching about how no one acknowledges your ~helpfulness~
youre literally refusing to help me in the same breath that youre bitching about me not asking you for it
again
REASONS WHY I DIDNT FUCKING ASK YOU
dont act like me not asking someone who regularly refuses to help others
someone who actually talks about how UNNATURAL it is for trolls to help others and how she wants to keep an edge oVer eVeryone and how goddamn worthless eVeryone else is
and who is frequently unhelpful to me SPECIFICALLY
is me being stupid
no thats me being smart and not wasting my goddamn time
THATS what pisses me off
you trying to pass off YOUR fucking shortcomings as MINE
that said
those links are actually informatiVe
although not in the way you probably intended
kinda shows a pattern
where it looks like you only actually help people when it means you can act and feel superior to them
which sure as fuck explains why iVe hardly been able to get two constructiVe words together out of you without you bitching about how im not feeding your ego properly while you do it
im just gonna state it flat out so theres no further misunderstandings on this point
the game may force us to work together so that we all haVe to help each other at some point
but if youVe gotta be able to lord oVer people to help them then im neVer actually gonna fucking WANT yours
alternias gone and im done being looked down on by assholes
the difference between us is that im not gonna get myself and eVeryone else killed oVer spite
so if the game dictates it im gonna ask for your help eVen if i dont want it or anything to do with it
which is basically what this was
i got three names out of you which is frankly more than i was expecting and exactly what i asked for
if you wanna know why i didnt ask for more than that
just go back and reread our conVersation aboVe
no subject
just
wow
you're really hell bent on passing judgment on me for reasons that are completely in your head, aren't you♫
well, think what you want to think I guess
but remember this
you see the way I'm acting with you♫
it's because you don't deserve me actually helping you
you think you know everything about me or the reasons I do things
when all you're doing is making biased assumptions
based on the fact that you don't like me and your little boyfriend doesn't either
but you know what, that's just fucking fine by me
go ahead and make it obvious that even with proof that I'm actually not, you think I'm awful
because this will just make all the so-called 'good' you think you're doing here worth jack and shit
because obviously all you care about
is sounding like you're the one who's actually trying here
or the one who's better than me or something
like are you fucking looking at what you're typing♫
and you say Kusbir gives you a headache, when the shit you're spewing is way worse than her circular logic on ~any~ night
so you know what
I hope you go down next
because this♫
~this~ is the sort of hoofbeastshit we don't need
~this~ is what the problem is
not my attitude
not the fact that you don't get Avispa
not even the fact that trolls aren't really built to work together
what's really goinna kill us is listening t' little shits like you and that moronic redblood
whose qualifiers for being 'useful' only seems to be
how much we can pat you on the ass
or coddle your ~precious little feelings~
newsflash assholes
the whole game isn't 'who wants to spend their time interim-moirailing these two whiny wimps'
it's life or death
get the fuck ~over~ yourself
no subject
you are the one who constantly fucking proVokes me wheneVer im trying to get useful shit done
or tries to stand in the way of other people doing things that would help the game cause youVe got a hair up your nook about it for god knows what reasons
im not the one causing problems for you cause i think youre an asshole
its the other way around
youre the one turning an attempt to get the game better fucking organized in a way that benefits eVeryone into an argument oVer whos more helpful
youre the one whos bitching about me trying to make progress when youVe preViously bitched about no one getting off their asses and trying to get things moVing
youre the only one who thinks the tone is more important than the fucking content and intent here
im fucking sick and tired of you making eVery goddamn thing about YOU
and about how eVeryone but you is an incompetent moron
also for fucks sake could your weird grudge against kappy be any more obVious?
how the fuck did you manage to drag him into this?
how does this haVe anything whateVer the fuck to do with him in any way
except for the fact that you apparently hate us both and are passiVe aggresiVely trying to sabotage anything we try to do whether it has a single goddamn thing to do with you or not
are you seriously this fucking butthurt oVer the two least threatening trolls in the sessions that you haVe to more or less attack us on sight on the flimsiest shittiest pretenses imaginable wheneVer we do ANYTHING
eVen if its stuff you said you fucking wanted to see more people doing
like trying to get shit done?
fuck you zurahe
your attitude absolutely is the cancer thats gonna kill this game if you dont fucking learn how to deal with your personal ass deVastation when trolls dont just swallow down your shit
cause as far as i can tell the only thing either of us haVe done to you is fucking tell you when your ass was out of line in no uncertain terms
rather than cushioning the 'calm your rumble spheres bitchtits' in coddle-your-precious-feelings language
cause as i recall
we werent exactly the only ones telling you to slow your roll
we were just the ones who didnt feel like extending any more courtesy than you gaVe
no subject
I didn't bring up ONE THING about me being more helpful than anyone
I simply provided evidence to the contrary when you said I hadn't been helping anyone
that's not an argument
that's proving you WRONG
which is something, I notice, that you don't take to particularly well
what's the matter, don't like it when people can actually prove that you don't know shit about the accusatory crap you sling at them♫
and I bring him up
because the first actual time you ever talked to me was to bitch at me on behalf of that little waste of air, that's why
and every time since
the instant I start saying anything that might prove you wrong
you seem to try THAT MUCH FUCKING HARDER to convince yourself how fucking terrible I am
as if that will somehow make whatever crap you're feeding yourself to keep disliking me that much easier to swallow
and for the record, I'm not trying to hide it
I don't like the little piece of shit
honestly, I'd rather he have bitten it than Hapara or Phaest
at least ~they~ were fucking useful
but unlike him, I stick around when I start shit with other trolls
I don't invite anyone else to help me finish them
so if you want to talk about passive aggressive, bring it up with him, not with me
because honestly I am getting more than tired with his shit and yours too by associ-fuckin-ation
I don't care how fucking threatening you are or aren't
if you pick a fight with me, you'd better be prepared to finish it, because believe me
you boys don't want me to be the one that does
you're one to talk, by the way, about tone and what the fuck ever
pretty much every time you get called out on being as much of a raging nookwipe as you are
you come back with it only being you giving what you get
when really all it is is you trying to pretend like you're so above actually getting pissed at anyone
and that goading everyone else into getting mad is all you ever want to do so you can pat yourself on the back
about not being the one to lose your cool or some shit like that
but really
I want to hear from you
besides your invariable crusade against me making your little friend cry
what have I done to you personally
that's got you convinced that I'm so completely fucking awful♫
besides the fact that I do the exact same thing to you that you claim the both of you do to me
which is call you on you biased, self-absorbed hoofbeastshit when I see it
especially because it's usually aimed at me
you want courtesy♫
how about you fucking earn it♫
because in case you hadn't noticed, you two are the only ones who piss me off ~nearly~ this bad with the way you act♪
no subject
and what the entry sequences are
which is
yknow
what this memo is about
you can eVen tell i was asking that cause i asked whether anything youd put up to that effect was current for all the deaths weVe had
see i was asking that cause it doesnt actually fucking matter what other help you may or may not haVe proVided in the past
cause if you didnt haVe a list of whos in what sessions and what the entry order is then this memo i made here is STILL FUCKING NECESSARY
which is why i dont eVen fucking begin to get why youre acting like its so arrogant and hypocritical of me to act like im the first person to try and help out this way
as far as i know i AM the first person to try and get the sessions and entry orders straight
and you sure as fuck haVent proVided eVidence to the contrary
you proVided eVidence youVe offered completely unrelated adVice one on one to people
in your trademark god-you-suck-get-on-my-leVel way
ugh
id talked to you before then im pretty sure
but whateVer
if we did ill grant it wasnt much
ill say this again though
he didnt ask me to do shit
frankly he told me not to get inVolVed
he just mentioned it was happening and i checked it out on my own Volition
and it shouldnt fucking surprise you i mouthed off from there equally of my own Volition
does me mouthing off without needing an engraVed inVitation honestly surprise you
and when the fuck haVe i eVer backed down from an argument with you
dont talk to me about finishing shit i start when thats an issue youVe got with kappy
im his friend not his trainer
i cant make him haVe the long agonizing mutual ripping into you so desperately want with him
uh
wow
i haVe to say thats about the wrongest iVe eVer actually seen someone be
like
are you legit right now
i dont eVen PRETEND not to lose my cool
im almost constantly fucking pissed off
Vocally
in multiple directions
me keeping my cool oVer other people is not eVen remotely a thing i do or haVe eVer claimed to do
i mean iVe been trying not to piss people off intentionally as much in the interests of surViVing the game
but i haVent exactly stopped getting pissed off myself oVer shit
or stopped acting pissed when i am
so i seriously haVe no idea where the fuck you got any of that
also i dont think im aboVe anyone
i think im better at actually trying to work with people than you
not by a whole hell of a lot mind
but at least i dont try to withhold information from anyone in the game for any reason
which is something you demonstrably do
youre the one who seems to think that me thinking im better than someone at any particular thing means i consider myself completely superior to them in eVery way
i think thats your personal issue and its got fuck all to do with me and anything im actually saying
as for what youVe done to me
do you really want me to go back and find all the times youVe been an insulting outright bitch to me when iVe been minding my own business
just jumping all up on my bulge when i wasnt eVen talking to you specifically
or was talking to other people altogether
and could not eVen begin to be accused of 'aiming' anything at you
i can think of one time where i jumped the fuck in on you and ripped into you for what you were doing oVer shit that had nothing to do with me personally
and thats when you were tearing into kappy
whos a friend of mine so it did kinda haVe something to do with me personally
but jumping the fuck in on me and ripping into me and what im doing whether it has fuck all to do with you or not seems to be the only way you HAVE of talking to me
like its a legit regular occurrence by now
plus the only time shit is eVer ciVil between us is when im the one to try to cool things off
and i start trying to play nice and remind you that there are actually some things about you i openly acknowledge as admirable or impressiVe when youre not flat out screaming in my face
so basically the only times we eVer get along is when i consciously go out of my way to appease you enough that you stop frothing at the chitinous windhole
and i constantly haVe to do that IN THE FACE OF YOU VERBALLY ABUSING THE SHIT OUT OF ME
which youre usually doing FOR NO GODDAMN REASON
cause im seriously trying to make shit work with eVeryone
while you constantly make my life harder and throw insults at me i know im gonna haVe to fucking choke down eVentually for the sake of eVeryone
you included
is that enough of a list
no subject
can't really read your mind and frankly that was incredibly unspecific
like really, can you make more of an ass of yourself, going off and forgetting about things that have happened within this very conversation♫
I mean really, d' you have memory issues or something♫
and no, you hadn't
literally the first thing you said to me since this whole fucking thing started
was that grand debacle with your little friend
and if he ~did~ ask you to stay out, then why the fuck did you go dragging yourself into it, huh♫
it sure wasn't out of any need to tell me off over someone you've known all of what
a week♫
because I'm pretty sure that's not at all something anyone with any kind of survival instinct would drag themselves into
have you ever noticed, first off, that I never start bitching at you until you start bitching at me♫
like literally, go back and look at all those times I've supposedly 'verbally abused' you
and let's see who starts what first
so you know what♫
I really would like you to show me all these so-called times I've been a huge bitch to you I really would
maybe you need the refresher on who starts shit, considering you can't even keep track of what's happened within the last fifteen minutes or so
really go on then
en-fucking-lighten me, Lyn
but you know what
I didn't ever ask you to try oh-so-fucking hard to 'appease' me or what the fuck ever
if you didn't want to deal with me, then you didn't have to
because fuck all knows I hadn't done SHIT to you until you started up with me
you could have just left well enough alone and fucked off
but you didn't
so clearly I'm not the one starting up all this so-called 'screaming in your face' for 'no goddamn reason'
so I have to wonder why, if you're so smart or whatever, you keep doing it♫
I mean really, I ~was~ trying, despite whatever the fuck you think I was doing
to be fucking nice to you the last time we talked
so really
what the fuck is your issue with me
because clearly it can't be that I'm a huge asshole or whatever shit you're telling yourself
especially not considering who you're friends with
so what the actual fresh fuckin' hell is your problem with me♫
no subject
i was talking about the Very thing this whole memo was about in the first place
and the contextual clues were pretty fucking heaVy
so if you managed to not get it despite all that
it sure as fuck wasnt me not communicating clearly enough
it was you not goddamn listening
i eVen fucking SPECIFIED that the only thing i was taking credit for was being the first to try and get the sessions and entry orders worked out in public
not for being the only one helping anyone at all
which you also eVidently missed
plus theres the fact that i neVer fucking actually claimed to be the only person helping people PERIOD
thats totally something you read in between the lines so that is ENTIRELY on you and cannot in any way be chalked up to some communication fail on my part
this is why you fucking think all i do is try to proVe im not wrong
its cause literally eVerything you say is trying to make shit eVeryone elses fault but yours
so yeah
basically any discussion with you turns into you telling people theyre wrong
whether or not they actually are
and when people point out that they arent you slam them for being defensiVe
im detecting a Vicious cycle here
seriously
i dunno for some reason i thought id talked to you before
but shit things haVe been a fucking mess and iVe lurked in a lot of memos
okay so in the interest of fairness
ill grant you that if that was literally the first time we eVer talked then i didnt exactly make the greatest first impression
regardless of my objections being justified
so while im not gonna apologize for calling you on that shit
ill apologize for not introducing myself before i went off on you
also he didnt ask me to stay out until i was already in
and as i pointed out
i dont back down from shit i start
eVen when asked
and since you dont belieVe in that shit you wouldnt exactly think better of me if i had
look do you eVen really care about my reasons for getting inVolVed
cause i dont actually think you do
so whats the point in you asking about them
im no bitchier with you than i am with anybody else
which is pretty fucking obVious if youVe literally eVer seen me talk to anyone
eVen kappy doesnt get me any less abrasiVe than i start out with you
especially if hes saying something dumb or nonsensical
so yeah when you get all pissy about me treating you the same way i treat eVerybody
i consider that 'without proVocation'
are you gonna claim youre so thin-skinned you cant handle my oVerall sarcasm leVels
which eVen kappy can stomach?
cause i dont see that being a thing you wanna say
and my problem with you is pretty much what iVe already boiled down
you take offense at the dumbest little things
things that arent and were neVer meant to be offensiVe
you dont appreciate a single goddamn effort i make
fuck you usually throw them back in my face
like you remember that shit with aVispa trying to get people to feel sorry for you
where i was trying to get her to comprehend how not cool that was for her to do to you
yknow
actually trying to help you and getting aVispa to recognize the concept of you haVing personal priVacy and her haVing Violated it
despite the fact that wed literally been at each others protein chutes only a handful of hours before?
did you just fucking forget that was a thing i did
or how about when you declared you were fucking done with the session
eVen MORE immediately after that argument
and i actiVely tried to patch shit up with you
like i explained what youd done that id objected to
and why it was detrimental to the session hence my objections
and then i apologized for going too far with said objections
and you responded with how you were going to kill me?
there was that thing
the point is iVe made way too many obVious efforts to get along with you for you to be constantly taking offense at the fairly innocuous shit i say like im actiVely trying to piss you off
it should be pretty goddamn obVious when im actually going off on you
cause yknow
youVe SEEN me flip the fuck off the handle
when i go off i seriously go off
there shouldnt eVen be a passing resemblance between when my normal behaVior and im genuinely pissed
and i think youre perfectly capable of telling the difference
so why do you keep getting pissed at me and getting on my case oVer nothing unless youre just looking to fucking pick fights with me
it feels a lot more like youVe got a problem with me than the reVerse
all the more so cause iVe neVer seen you actually try to help me for no reason
or eVen acknowledge i possess positiVe qualities
and you sure as fuck haVe neVer apologized to me for ANYTHING
so if anyones got a grudge here its not me
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like literally it would be a complete waste of time when I can tell you pretty much what it says
incoming subtitles
'I don't have a problem with you, you have a problem with me'
'bluh bluh huge bitch'
'long stretch of words repeating things you've already said at least twice'
'once again, bluh huge bitch'
'everything is your fault forever because I think you suck'
'fuck you, you don't know me or my life'
etcetera, etcetera, ad infinitum
maybe you should consider the fact
that you piss me off
because despite being one of the few other trolls who seems to have any indication of common sense
you STILL don't have the sense to tell when some things aren't going to get fixed by bitching someone out for things that don't concern you
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if you cant be bothered to read a detailed point by point address of yknow
all the questions you asked me
which i assumed you wanted answers to
ill keep this concise for your conVenience
right back at you princess
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I mean seriously
just
fucking seriously kid
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just saying youre the person whos been bitching about other players being weak
or who has the audacity to talk to who
or who isnt progressing fast enough
just curious if youVe seen any actual changes happening cause of it
i mean i bitch all the time
the difference is i dont actually expect it to help or change anything
i just do it for my own satisfaction
YOU seem to bitch and think its gonna get stuff done
aside from pissing people off at you
which iVe been telling you literally from the start
does not work
so it was pretty fucking hilariously ironic to haVe YOU tell ME that
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if it don't work here, then it ain't really my fault
all this fuckin' ~sensitivity~ or what the fuck ever
like seriously
how do you guys even♫
but I have a point and you know it
so
dwi
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dont lump me in with that shit
do i honestly strike you as any kind of sensitiVe indiVidual
im not telling you not to bitch at people
fuck i do that all the time
im telling you not to expect it to get results
cause it really has neVer worked
belieVe me iVe been doing it my whole life
maybe it worked for you on alternia cause alternia was a lot more casually cull-happy
but we cant afford to just cull people who mouth off or dont listen to us here
unless we wanna set off some kind of domino death chain that kills eVeryone
so here yelling at people doesnt actually serVe any useful purpose aside from Venting rage
which means youVe gotta learn some new tactics
not saying you haVe to like it
belieVe me trying to be helpful and get teamwork going hasnt exactly made my life any more joyful or fulfilling
but its better than failing and dying cause we just kept hammering at the same old things that no longer work
yeah and
so do i
the point is you neVer actually acknowledge anyone but you could be eVen partially right
whereas thats something im actually capable of and do more regularly than id like to admit
and im not saying that cause im trying to proVe im better
im saying that cause this is literally your biggest problem and you need to fix it
cause you haVe actual things going for you but this stupid goddamn refusal to eVer listen to anyone or actually THINK about what they fucking say is standing so much in your way that its gonna fuck you up completely
along with eVerything youVe got going for you and eVerything you eVer try to accomplish here
were not on alternia anymore
the things that worked for us on alternia arent working anymore
i dont eVen think we can still be the people we were on alternia anymore unless we want to die as them
you want the soft weak trolls to toughen up for the game
well angry vicious trolls have got to blunt some of their edges
at least enough to learn how to work together
eVeryones got detrimental shit theyVe gotta get rid of to win at this game
and this is yours
so for fucks sake
stop acting like im trying to show you up by pointing out youre doing shit wrong
and it sure as fuck doesnt matter whose FAULT it is that strategies from alternia dont work here
thats not the point
none of that has eVer been the point
the point is that none of us can afford to keep doing what doesnt work anymore
im trying to help you
and myself by extension
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but honestly, I couldn't care less about culling anybody or not
honestly if they don't listen, they'll probably just wind up dying anyway
so it's their own damn fault for not listening
but my problem is
why should I have to change just because they don't like it♫
if they'd just listen, I wouldn't ~have~ to be such an ass about everything
but nooooooo
no one fucking listens until it's too damn late
and then they have the nerve to act like I didn't warn them in the first place
it's like it goes in one fucking auricular sponge clot and out the other
completely stupid
and I can't ~stand~ stupid
I mean I'm not the brightest phosphorescent lighting device in the fucking world
but even ~I~ have more sense than most of these losers
and that's really not conducive to surviving
especially when they won't listen when I tell them shit for their own good
just because I don't do it ~nicely~ or whatever doesn't mean I'm doing it to be a jerk
I mean fuck's sake, Avispa and Phylus handle me just fine
and you've ~seen~ how they are
so what the fuck is everyone else's problem♫
I mean for fuck's sake
it's not like I'm yelling at them to get better at the game so they'll fucking ~die~
it's pretty much the exact opposite♪
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youre changing for the game itself
like
alternia was basically fatal konflict
and this is penultimate delusion
you cant play one like you play the other
you gotta completely change your play style
and like i said youre not the only one whos gotta make the transition
eVerybody has to
so youre essentially doing it for your own sake
and be fair here
its not like all your screaming has been instructiVe
or meant to help the person youre screaming at
just gonna cite kappy here and leaVe it at that
thats the kind of shit you haVe to stop doing
not the being generally abrasiVe
cause yeah abrasiVeness to some degree is something people should learn to handle
especially if its taking the form of oVerall helpfulness
like im trying my hardest to be helpful and i can still only be so patient
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maybe if I had a reason to actually care about anyone else
or, you know, they didn't keep giving me reasons to want to ram my face against th' nearest cliff
I'd be a little more reasonable about things
but they all piss me off something awful
and to make it worse, most of them aren't even the trolls I was SUPPOSED to play with to begin with
okay no, that guy's just a liability, don't care what you say
poisoned imps, yeah♫
besides, I wasn't screaming at him
I was informing him that needed to back away from my team
his own fault things escalated like they did
but I mean really
have you seen what I have to deal with on my team♫
it's the rough equivalent of having a team comprised
of a two-sweep-old, a fuckin' tuber, a piranha and a woolbeast
I mean what th' fuck am I even supposed to do with that♫
the fucking fish actually tried to KILL ME during entry by dropping shit on me
and DS is the only one who seems like he has any sense
when he isn't DISAPPEARING for days on end
and don't
even get me started
on Mandya
I am not built to handle this much genetic predisposition for TOTAL FAILURE♪♪♪
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i just spent like two paragraphs listing all the reasons you haVe to care about other people
which ill summarize here as 'their fates are Very likely to both directly and indirectly affect your own'
how much they do or dont piss you off doesnt change that fact
so either you resign yourself to working with them regardless or you might as well just cull yourself now
are you honestly complaining about his prototyping
okay first of all its not like eVeryone knew exactly what prototyping would do before we got into the game
im betting this is the moment where you raise your hand and go 'i did'
cause somehow you always seem to be ahead of eVeryone else in eVerything
well good for you but i know i at least had no fucking clue
and i doubt kappy did either
but lets stop for a second and talk about how kappys prototyping is probably the only goddamn one that has been ENTIRELY NEGATED
cause of the antidotes hes proVided for eVeryone in alpha
so frankly his prototyping is the only one in our session that i know of to haVe a completely NULL effect
now lets talk about mine
which my ancestor frankly hijacked and i didnt get any say in the process but regardless
our imps can turn fucking inVisible cause of him
thats a lot more problematic than a poison eVeryones kitted out with antidotes against anyway
plus the poison on the imps was so fucking localized to blatantly obVious flowers on their backs that unless you were fucking trying to light imp farts or something its not like the risk was eVer huge eVen before the antidotes got handed out
you are Vastly oVerexaggerating how much of a liability hes eVer actually been
and ignoring the fact that theres plenty of problematic prototypings you could be more justifiably raging oVer
so im gonna chalk this up to illogical grudge cause you haVe zero appendages to stand on here
also dont eVen kid yourself
yelling or not you jumped into that conVersation uninVited and both guns blazing
telling him off like hed broken some law rather than Violated an arbitrary demand youd created in your head that not eVen the rest of your session wanted any part of
you fucking demanded he apologize for existing or something along those lines if i recall correctly
you werent exactly a leVel-headed Voice of caution and concern
you were the fucking catalyst of ALL of that mess
the second you walked in is the second eVerything went south
how can you seriously be foisting the blame on kappy
eVen if hed literally gone 'okay' and turned off his husktop THEN AND THERE
youd haVe been no less out of line
and eVeryone who told you so would haVe said the exact same shit
fuck i wouldVe been eVen more pissed cause you had no right to be giVing him orders and he had no obligation to follow em
so him giVing in to your ridiculous demands wouldVe made what you did eVen worse than it already was
but seriously i dont giVe a shit who escalated the situation
you CREATED the goddamn situation
you basically WERE the situation
and you dont get to be the situation and then go 'well its eVeryone elses fault cause they didnt react to me right'
ugh
im getting pissed again
in the interests of diplomacy i Vote we drop this subject
but seriously
if you wanna continue it without me completely blowing my stack
cause i fucking will
youd better take some fucking responsibility for your own part in that mess
cause eVeryone but yous already owned up to their part in making it messy
so unless you can get on the same leVel as eVeryone else youVe got no RIGHT to talk about something that far beyond your grasp
as for being built for that much total failure
actually i think you were
youVe been going on and on foreVer about how badass you are
and youVe demonstrated it on occasion too
you eVer think maybe youVe been saddled with exactly the amount of handicap someone like you needs
cause it sounds like itd take a hell of a lot to slow your roll
and look at the cards youVe been dealt
maybe its time for you to learn what its like for the rest of us
with obstacles you cant just smash through
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'caring about someone'
with 'needing them to survive'
completely different things, those
so don't tell me I've got to ~care~ about 'em in order to know I need 'em alive
m' not ~entirely~ stupid
and oh no, you brought it up, so we're going t' finish this one way or another
so look here
I know you think I have some weird grudge against your friend
and I do
now, at least
because I mean really, things would've probably been alright
if he could pick a fight and finish it himself
but he can't
and that's the ~first~ thing that pisses me off
second is the fact that everyone's acting like me telling him to stay away from my teammates
when my team's been told to lay down and die by yours
is a capital fucking offense
whatever you think I need to own up to♫
it better be more than 'you don't have the right to tell someone who to talk to'
because like it or not, he really ~could~ have just ignored me if he wasn't going to back up that attitude of his
like he did when he just stopped responding
or is that my fault too♫
you'd think I was the first troll to ever tell someone to fuck off
and oh look 'told him to apologize for existing'♫
do I look like I want to be listening to him all day♫
proof positive you didn't actually ~read anything~ before jumping to his defense like some knight in shining armor or some hoofbeastshit like that
tell me, have you read it all even now♫
or are you going entirely on your little boyfriend's account of what happened♫
because if you want to talk about someone who's a 'situation', you better take a good long look at your ~friend~
but hey, ~good for you~ lot that he had a way to fix a problem ~he caused~
one would only hope he would, all things considered
though that shit about ancestors♫
not even touching that with a ten foot pole
because how did he even live long enough if that even happened♫
I mean ~fucking seriously~
and last
I don't go 'on and on'
actually, I've made ~one fucking post~ 'bout it
and that was when the game ~started~
but maybe I shouldn't ~have~ to slow my roll
I know I sure wouldn't ~have~ to if half the trolls I'm playing with weren't pretty much ~cullbait~
and even ~that~ wouldn't be so bad if any of them wanted to try and ~change~
but they ~don't~ and it's fucking ~INFURIATING~
After all, YOU changed. Why shouldn't THEY?
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needing them to surViVe inVolves caring if they liVe or die
eVen if thats as far as the caring goes
although it seems like your concern goes a little further than that with at least a couple trolls
but fine
if youVe already grasped that point regardless of how you label it ill stop harping on it
he wasnt picking a fight there though
there was literally no altercation happening until you walked in and threw the gauntlet at his feet
regardless of what he did with it from that moment on
it was only there cause you put it there
also i dont get how you can blame him for it 'escalating'
and complain how he didnt stay to fight it out with you at the same time
either you dont think it shouldVe escalated at all or you wanted him to take it eVen further than it went
i mean i dont eVen care which it was you wanted but youre doing a weird thing where youre blaming him for it being bad while saying you wished hed made it worse?
like what the hell are you eVen talking about at this point
also there is really no comparing you and phaest
iVe been oVer this before
it was super fucking obVious that phaest hated what she was telling you guys for one thing
plus it was literally a case of her thinking she had zero choice in the matter
and that if you guys hacked into the game we would ALL die
you included
so letting you in would not haVe improVed your chances in any way
let me underline the main thing you should be taking away here SHE LITERALLY THOUGHT YOU GUYS WOULD DIE NO MATTER WHAT THE FUCK SHE DID
it was not a choice between save them or leave them to die cause as far as she knew 'save them' was not eVen on the table
so it was not her telling you guys to lay down and fucking die
it was her saying 'if i leaVe you guys yes youll die
but if you hack in youll still die AND so will the people i might actually haVe been able to saVe
you guys will die no matter what and im sorry about that but please let me do what little good i can or all my work will be for nothing'
obViously she was incorrect about what the game could actually handle but she didnt know that at the time
and to be fair the game is pretty fucking buggy so she wasnt entirely wrong either
but the point is she didnt fucking want to haVe to turn you guys down
she just literally thought it was that or nothing based on her work on the game
and im not the most emotionally perceptiVe guy in the world but eVen i could tell she was pretty torn up about it
eVen when she was pissed thinking that you guys were gonna wreck her ability to saVe anyone at all
that is not actually similar in any way to you making an arbitrary judgment call about one troll being a liability and somehow deciding he might infect your team with failure though some kind of preViously undiscoVered Verbal osmosis
and then telling him to gtfo in the most insulting way possible
without eVen giVing the teammates youd decided he shouldnt be talking to a say in whether or not they WANTED to talk to him
those things are literally not eVen on the same PLANET as each other much less the same ballpark
and yeah i read all of it
it was awhile back though so if i got some minor details wrong sue me
i know you wanted him to apologize for something super fucking insulting
if not him existing then maybe him being worthless
something along those lines anyway
but does it really fucking matter what the exact wording was cause it sure as fuck doesnt change my point
that being you were going at him in a ridiculously fucking combatiVe way and id almost consider him not rising to such obVious bait as a point in his faVor
cause pretty much any other troll would haVe
you can say you werent looking for a fight or for it to 'escalate'
and maybe you eVen belieVe it
but that sure as fuck wasnt how you were actually acting
and considering youre pissed at him for not staying and fighting it out with you i think youre fucking kidding yourself that a fight wasnt exactly what you were aiming and hoping for cause youre sure pissed you didnt get one with him
also for fucks sake stop calling him my boyfriend
id barely eVen been talking to him much before that happened
aside from serVer stuff that is
i only got inVolVed cause you were trying to start shit so hard that you hooked entirely the wrong finbeast with your bait
yeah weVe become friends since but a) still nothing to do with quadrants of any sort
and b) nothing to do with me jumping in there
yeah apparently my ancestors kismesis from way back extended his lifespan somehow?
thats all hes really explained
i dunno if its him being cagey or if he literally doesnt fucking remember
honestly on any non-game subjects his pan seems pretty fucked up
i get the impression hes been aliVe way too long
cullbait how?
as in just trolls who are likely to get killed off in general
or trolls whod be likely to get culled by alternian standards
cause the latter thing really doesnt exist anymore
im with you in that i haVe no fucking idea how trolls like nikkal liVed long enough eVen to make it to the game
but whether youd expect them to be culled in fiVe minutes back on alternia is no longer actually releVant to anything
so long as they gain leVels and shit and are strong enough to handle the game thats really all they need to do
or are they not handling their shit in the game well
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so now to points two and three
number two:
if you think that was me throwing down a gauntlet
I question how much attention you've been paying to how I do things
because if I wanted to challenge him
and it wouldn't be much of one I'll tell you that
then I'd do it
not just insult him and hope he picked a fight
and what I'm saying is that he should have either done one or the other
so either pick a fight and then finish it
or don't start at all
that's pretty much it
P.S. I will stop calling him your boyfriend when you stop defending him like he is
you want to do him a favor♫
tell him not to start something he's not going to finish
or better yet, to finish what he DOES get into
instead of crying to whoever will listen
three:
whoa there bro
calm that bulge you've got going for Algfri, alright
because one: she's dead
and two: you're not doing her any favors
look, all that junk about the game and blah blah blah aside
don't you think it should probably have been a little smarter
for her to do a lot more research on some crazy lifesaving game than she did♫
I mean really, at this point I'm wondering if she was sure ~any~ of this was real
and wasn't just reeling trolls in as guinea pigs
hurrah if it works, at least we tried if it didn't, get what I mean♫
but even if she didn't know what us playing would do to the game
it was kind of a dick move just ignoring the fact that if she was building it from the ground up, then she should have
you know
probably set the player cap a little higher
but too late now, I guess
we're all here, and we ain't going nowhere
unless more of my teammates die, I mean
also: both, in most cases
Nikkal probably wouldn't have made it past the drones to get offplanet
and I don't think Mandya would've lasted to an age to make it offplanet with how ~she~ lives
Serala might have made it offplanet out of sheer, infuriating dumb luck
and I don't know what the hell the rules are for seadwellers, so fuck princess Komesh
at the moment though, gamewise♫
except for Mandya, I'm not even sure
and I think ~she's~ only moving because I'm her server now
I haven't heard shit from Nikkal or Komesh in fuckin' ~ages~
so they might be dead somewhere for all I know
and I dunno about Serala but I'm pretty sure his lusus might give him more trouble than the imps
so as far as I know♫
the only one who's got everything but their Big Ass Planet Quest done is me